My Last Post: The End is the Resurrection for the Beginning

IMG186-1It’s no secret that my last post on this blog was FOREVER ago! Yet, how ironic is it that my latest post, is my last post. As I lay in bed this morning, I felt strongly compelled to write a post  clarifying this chapter in my life and allowing myself to gently pass on to the next in peace. When I started this blog, I used it as a form of therapy for me. I used it to help me to bear the “birthing pains” of which I was a novice to and not yet spiritually mature enough to comprehend. I used it as a way to release my tears, my fears, my curiosities, my struggles, my growth, and my development. I used it as a way to chronicle my journey back to truth in hopes that it would help others do the same.

Words cannot express what this blog has meant to me and how it has helped me. I thank each and every one of you who sent me messages of encouragement and even those that allowed me to yield as a vessel of His to help support you through your difficult times. I must admit, there were many posts I wish I could have shared with you over the past year that detailed the beginning of a new level of spirituality that I started in 2012. However, I believe nothing happens without purpose and hence there will soon be a greater vehicle for me to communicate, share, and encourage you on.

One thing that struck me so this morning was the title of this blog. The inspiration for the title of this blog came from a Frederick Douglas quote that states, “Without struggle, there is no progress.” My interpretation of this led me to believe that there is nothing that is accomplished without first extreme struggle. Overtime, I have begun to understand this quote in a very different manner. Indeed, sometimes we must struggle a bit before we see the manifestation of our desires just as a baby learns to fall several times before mastering the art of walking. However, as children of the most High God, there is sooo much that we are not required to struggle for in order to gain. God’s Kingdom unfolds in perfect order without much help from us. Take for instance your breathing in this moment, the rising of the sun, the formation of your hands as an embryo, or the sequence in which a seed sprouts into a flower. These are all mechanisms that don’t require struggle on our part. Yet they unfold perfectly in God’s wisdom. Oh what joy! My message is to trust Him.

I state this is my last post because I believe He is prompting me to share with you on a deeper level in a different way. I believe this blog will forever serve as a platform of documented wisdom that I believe is very valuable. In fact, I have absolutely no REGRETS about this blog. Nevertheless, it’s come to a time for me to naturally grow to a new level. In much the same way a baby doesn’t remain a baby forever or a caterpillar doesn’t remain in that state forever. Both, with love will blossom into that which they were created to become. And that, my family is the process of life: continual growth and forward movement.

I pray this blog has and does inspire you. I pray you will visit it occasionally to receive chronicled wisdom and maybe even refer people to it that are currently going through similar experiences. I pray you understand my heart and truth as you read this. I pray I will interact with you on my next platform. Overall, I pray you continue in peace, love, joy, and with the spirit of continually allowing Him to move your life forward.

Signing out with love & hugs,

His daughter*

Sweet, Sweet Aroma..

ImageAhh, how refreshing it is to see this blog page at 1 am in the morning…lmbo! Who knows why I am still awake at this hour….Anywho, I know it’s been a while, but for pretty darn good reason! There’s been so much that has transpired in the last couple of months. Can we say, “Our Father PROMOTES!! YESSSIRR HE DOES.” To make a long story short, I have several new opportunites on my plate and I am highly thankful for them! Singin…glorryyy, glorrryyy!!

One thing that has really been ringin’ true in my soul is that perfection is a process. Anything that is worth having takes time to receive. Certainly, I don’t mind waitin’ on Jesus! I used to operate in this mindset that everything had to happen at an appointed time and I had to mark off a list of things to make them happen. Boy, was I in the wrong. I’ve realized that I desire for my Father to work in me and perfect me. I desire to be ready for the next promotion He has for me. Whether that be in my spiritual life, career, romantic life, or family life-I desire to be READY. Preparation plus Opportunity surely does equal Success!

Tonight, or rather this morning, (lol) my mind is focused on walking as the blossomed woman of God my Father has transformed me into. What a beautiful thing that is! I envision a tulip blooming from a bud everytime I say it.Oh how I love tulips! Just like a tulip, it doesn’t get that gorgeous over night.The essence of her fragrance does not manifest in a moment’s time. It takes plenty of time and nuturing for that tulip to radiate as Our Father has perfectly designed it to exist. I’m just like that tulip and I’m allowing my Father to bring me into full season! He came so that I can have an ABUNDANT life and ALL of my fitting desires given unto me. Why should I settle for any less?

In the meantime, my prayer is that you let Him work on you. Perhaps, you are a rose that grew from concrete, or you’re a tree that has been through the pain of an unsettling childhood. Whatever your circumstance is, whatever circle you are standing in-that’s really what a circumstance is, remember you don’t have to continue to stand in it if you desire better for your life just as Our Father does. Ask Him for wisdom. Tell Him that you’ve messed up. Tell Him that you desire to live right as His child. Tell Him you want all of Him. Tell Him you are hurt and bruised and need help. Then thank Him that you are healed by His stripes. Watch Him work in you! You are going to be amazed as He brings you the desires of your heart and transforms you into the very being He created you to be.

As I stated before, I don’t mind waiting for the desires of my heart because I know my Father is perfecting all that concerns me. I trust and believe that He is working a miracle in my life as well as those I am surrounded by.Keep believing!

En paz,

Virtuous woman*

Nothing is Impossible with God!

ImageMmmm… Mmmm… Mmmm.. Words can not begin to articulate the gratitude, peace, and joy of my heart. All I can do is close my eyes and say thank you Father and throw my hands up in worship. Tomorrow will mark exactly 2 months from my last post. Exactly 2 months- May 27. On April 19th I wrote a post I never in my life imagined I’d write. I was bruised, battered, broken and on the literal brink of destruction.(Caution: Take heed to how you respond to adversity.) I wondered how my Father would deliver me. I wondered would I ever be restored. I wandered could I walk another day on this planet with a sense of value. I am here to say, NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE WITH GOD (Luke 1:37).

I’d like to introduce to my fellow blog followers someone new. You may have remembered the 26 year old girl that used to write this post. Well, I’d like to introduce you to the 26 year old virtuous woman of God whom my Father has transformed me into! It may sound a bit strange, but I promise you with EVERYTHING in me that I am no longer that young girl who used to write these blog posts. I am now a Proverbs 31 woman of God! If I detailed the full story of how God dynamically changed my life over the past month and a half you WOULDN’T believe me! Heck, I was shocked myself as it was happening and as I am now looking back on everything. My Father told me I will have an incredible testimony to share when He is finished with this season in my life! Boy, are you going to be amazed!!!

As I reflect on the past month and a half and even more, the past three and a half months…I’m still speechless. Isaiah 61:3 says, “He will give me a crown of beauty for my ashes” and boy did He give me that and so much more. My, how I love my Father! Perhaps one day I may share my testimony on this page. I know beyond a shadow of a doubt, I will share it in person. And just maybe, that person will be you.

For now, I won’t detail the process that I’ve gone through so far, because as usual He is still at work:) I came to write this post to encourage someone. I’m writing this post to tell you that no matter what you are going through that makes you think you are at the end of your rope, remember that our Father is standing right beside you, holding your hand. He promised to NEVER leave you nor forsake you and that is a promise He can not break. I am writing this post because you must slow down and take your time. You will be amazed at how much you can SEE and HEAR when you slow down, remove your worldy eyes and walk by faith as a child of the Most High King.

Before I thought I was seeing. I thought I was hearing. I thought my heart was receiving and feeling my Father’s love. Whew chiilld, did He show me a lil sumthin, sumthin. Appeareances mean absolutely nothing to Him. When you yield to Him and allow Him to take both of your hands, He will show you what He taught you as His child. He taught us to walk by faith. Let Him RECOVER YOU AND MAKE YOU A NEW CREATION:) I BELIEVE He is RESTORING YOU! Thank you Father for the spiritual journey of a lifetime!!

P.S. Stay tuned for the “Pain is Beauty” post*  WARNING-IT GETS DEEP.

En paz,

Virtuous Woman*

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A loving silence often has far more power to heal and to connect than the most well-intentioned words…..

Today I had a conversation with a stranger. A stranger that once walked this earth, yet whom I did not know while he was here. It sounds odd and it may as well be, but it was one of the most illuminating conversations I’ve had in a couple months. To say the least, it gave me such peace. I hesitated in writing this message, but I felt like since this is a part of my truth, I should share it. It all started with a dream I had last night. One in which I actually don’t fully understand. Then, I found myself in conversation today with words and what I believe to be “truth” being placed in my mouth and being spoken aloud.

See it’s one thing to be uncertain about your words, but it’s another thing to have understanding come to you through words in which you do not understand where they came from. It’s difficult for me to really explain this message, in part because I don’t fully understand it myself. There’s more that I could share with this message, but it’s possible that I am premature in my timing. Until I receive further wisdom regarding this, I’ll leave this message be. R.I.P. Alfonso Tasho Gordon

Never…

Never would I have imagined that I would be in the same situation that I was when I started this blog. NEVER! Never had it crossed my mind that one day I would be experiencing the same type of pain and hurt that I felt when I created this outlet. Afterall, this blog was conceived in my pain. Granted, it’s amazing what one can give birth to in the midst of pain, but I must say, I never saw this one coming.

I don’t know if I am emotionally fit or in a true spiritual mindset to write this blog post, but I know writing can be extremely therapeutic for me, and it’s something that has helped me endure over time. As you know, I refrain from writing posts that may be immature for presentation-immature in the sense of my thoughts not being fully developed on a subject, but I just felt the need to get this one out.

Lord knows I have questions for days. I cry, then pick myself up, then cry some more. All I can think is, “How in the world can this be happening??” I don’t have any answers, nor do I understand. All I’ve been praying for is peace and strength to stay focused on Him. Trust God. I must trust God. I know that my eyes only allow me to see so far, but His vision spans the universe. I must have faith and I must trust God.

I wish I could have helped. I wish I could have lost myself then and been used as the vessel I know I am. I wish I would have been deeply rooted in Him so that my foundation did not break. I wish I could have been stronger and more selfless. I wish my priorities were in the right place. I wish I would have walked all the way according to His leading. I wish I could have done things differently. I know this post may seem a little awkward. It’s just I haven’t quite figured out how and where to place my thoughts. So excuse me for me vent and sporadicness.

Tonight, I’m sending out a prayer request, until I can learn to articulate more clearly my thoughts in this season. I pray for peace abounding, strength to endure, and patience to trust His leading.

SN: It’s so ironic and a bit creepy that the painting that I included in this post has been hanging in my room for about 8 or 9 months. When I first layed eyes on this painting, it was so beautiful and powerful. I had to purchase it, no matter the cost. In my bed, I gazed at it day after day. Never would I have imagined that I would mirror this exact image one day. (A natural-haired woman clinging to my Bible in my sleep with the exact  same colors surrounding me.)

Covered by His blood,

His Daughter

Out with 2011 and in with 2012!!!

We are on the brink of an INCREDIBLE year! I can feel it in my bones…lol.. Anywho, I decided to do a bit of written reflection before proceeding into the new year. If I have not learned anything from my present career position, I’ve learned the power of “reflection” in order to grow as a human and spiritual being. So, heregoes….voila…magic…lol…ok, just kidding I had a moment. Let me get right into it.

2011 in review. Hmm…I would have to use the words pain, discovery, revelation, and movement. This year has been an indescribable year. I don’t even have the mental stamina to pour out this year’s events in this post. Nevertheless, I have been broken down to my core, rebuilt, and broken down periodically over the months. No, I am not reducing this year to a bowl of pain. Yet, I must say there is something incredible that comes out of a woman or an individual period, in terms of a painful experience. I mean take a look at this blog. This blog was conceived in my pain.

I must say, I am so thankful for my experiences this year. Truly, God has blessed me with a testimony that  I would have never imagined. The beauty of it, is that all the while, He was standing beside me holding my hand and guiding me on His path. One thing that I have come to understand this year, is that my life is not really “my life.” It’s His life that He is blessing me with the opportunity to live through in order to bring glory to His name.

Over the past twelve months, God has removed the scales from my eyes to show me who I’ve allowed this world to turn me into. He’s shown me how ignorant I was to myself and given me many out-of-body experiences to show me my character in various situations. I’ll be the first to admit that I  am nowhere near perfect and He is still working with me on these very issues. His word tells me that He has begun a good work in me and He will bring it to full completion. I am so faithful about this!

To round out this post and this year, I ‘ll share with you an excerpt from a document I created last week to help me with my personal reflection and “Declare and Decree” for 2012.

1. I will seek His Kingdom and righteousness first.

“Seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.” Matthew 6:33

Steps: My purpose for living is to please the King daily, not for Him to please me.

Put God first in my life.(Acknowledge Him, praise Him, talk to Him and ask Him for help and guidance.) I will fill my thoughts with His desires and promote the interests of His Kingdom. I will take His character for my pattern. I will serve and obey Him in everything. 

I pray your new year be filled with plenty of joy, love, peace, patience, good will, truth, development, earnest, and discovery. May we present and represent Our Father in all that we do! In Jesus sweet name I pray, Amen.

En paz,

His daughter